2016 reflections & goodbye for now

2016 reflections & goodbye for now

I have always shared my life on the internet. For as long as I can remember, in one way or another, I’ve written about my life online. The internet had always been a bit of a comfort blanket for me as opposed to the hellhole full of trolls that I’ve come to know in the last couple of years. Since Gavin and I broke up, though, I’ve felt far more vulnerable and the thing that used to empower me has…

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27 life lessons at 27

27 life lessons at 27

Good grief I’m 27. It’s the time of year again where I list all of the lessons learned in the past year. This past year has been one massive upheaval. My life turned upside down French Prince style and I am just now starting to find my feet again. Sort of. Ask for help when you need it I am pretty bad for letting things truly pile on top of me until I have an eventual breakdown and surprise everybody…

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30 day TREAT YOURSELF challenge

30 day TREAT YOURSELF challenge

I failed Blogtober. I’m not even sorry. Any time I wasn’t writing, I was drinking wine, I was watching movies, I was on dates, I was not stressing out about not writing for Blogtober. It was a good challenge, and I admire those that got through it but man I’m so done with 30 day challenges. I saw somebody say today that she’s cutting out Netflix and chocolate in November AND she’s attempting NaNoWriMo. Again, commendable but where do we draw the…

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Adventures with a kilt company

Adventures with a kilt company

I’ve been working at a kilt company for 6 months now. It’s easily my favourite job that I’ve ever had and it’s somehow made me love Scotland even more. I love it. 6 months is no time at-all but I have never felt so settled in a job so quickly. I thought I’d share some things I’ve learned in my time at my lovely wee company. Working for what is mostly a family company can be a little intimidating at times but…

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Lovecats vs Flatmate

Lovecats vs Flatmate

My cats are great, but they’re spoilt. There are no two ways around it; I have always lived my life around them and would never dream of sending them to a cattery. It’s ridiculous. I have no problem with catteries – my dogs always went to kennels when we went away on holiday! For me, though, for my own sanity, no catteries. Round up friends, family, neighbours… whatever. If it meant my precious fluffy kitties weren’t out of their comfort…

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Happy birthday, Megan

Happy birthday, Megan

You came to us in the middle of a storm. We were tired, we were aching and never have we since needed relief as much as we did in the months preceding your birth. We were weathering, but getting by should never be enough. We needed more. You were that. I call you our little firefly because you were a bright, ethereal light in the dark. Despite the aching in our hearts, you were so easy to love. We were guarded…

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Recently

Recently

I have slept through most of my free time today so this is just a quick roundup of everything I’ve been enjoying lately! Listening to… The new Alter Bridge album The Last Hero! WOW. I didn’t actually think they’d ever release an album that rivalled Blackbird and this truly, truly does. Once I finished the album, I instantly restarted it. I can’t believe what they’ve pulled off and I really hope I can manage to nab a ticket to their…

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National Poetry Day

National Poetry Day

It is National Poetry Day, I am very tired. Here are some of my favourite poems: Buddy Wakefield – We Were Emergencies Buddy Wakefield is extremely special to me. I discovered his work a few years back and all of it, but especially this, really hit the core. Buddy Wakefield writes bravely, bluntly but with hope. He is sentimental but razor-sharp and I cannot get enough. “Tonight, poets, turn your ridiculous wrists so far backwards the razor blades in your…

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Sleep is for the week

Sleep is for the week

I sat, head in my hands, wincing and said, for probably the 15th time that day; I cannot deal with how tired I am I was so tired. So tired that I felt physically ill. So tired that my anxiety had been sky-high. Between sleep deprivation and too much caffeine, I was losing my mind. I couldn’t really figured out why, though. I was looking into high-energy foods and promising myself I’d go on a diet of solely these if it meant…

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You are enough

You are enough

In all your insecurity, your imperfections and your instability, you are enough. The mistakes you have made do not define who you are, or who you will be. You don’t need to continue to apologise or excuse. You are enough. You are not damaged goods, you are human and humans suffer. Humans experience trauma, complications, difficulties. This doesn’t mean you’re damaged, it means you’ve lived. Stop trying to squeeze your huge, beautiful soul into small, stuffy spaces. I have seen so…

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