Until I Am Whole (Trip to Barcelona)

Until I Am Whole (Trip to Barcelona)

“I think I’ll stay here ‘Til I feel whole again I don’t know when.” The Mountain Goats – Until I Am Whole So, it turns out the secrets to having a great holiday are: Go through utter hell during the months preceding it Feel too miserable to really acknowledge that the holiday is coming up Don’t plan anything Have no mobile internet Barcelona was always the plan. When I got my current job, I promised myself I’d go there with…

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A life of love

A life of love

In all the chaos, flurry and rage of the petty squabbles we find ourselves in, we forget about the people who love us. And loved us. And will love us. A family friend died this morning. I knew it was coming, and I honestly can’t even remember the last time I saw Les but the loss was felt, deeply. Les was probably the most wholesome person I’ve ever met. A friend to everybody. All I can remember is his smiling…

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A letter to my 16 year old self (#GGBlogChallenge)

A letter to my 16 year old self (#GGBlogChallenge)

So, I’m trying to blog more often and decided hopping onto a 30 day blog challenge, 9 days into it, was the best plan. I’ve talked about my 16 year old self through my livejournal posts and I don’t actually want to keep revisiting her but I do like the idea of writing to a version of me that existed 10 years ago. This particular challenge is the #GGBlogChallenge! Dear 16 year old me, Man, I laugh so much at…

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Ramble on (moving day)

Ramble on (moving day)

“Leaves are falling all around It’s time I was on my way Thanks to you I’m much obliged For such a pleasant stay But now it’s time for me to go The autumn moon lights my way” Led Zeppelin – Ramble On So, today is moving day. Finally. Autumn doesn’t actually start ’til later this month but it’s the 1st of September and to me, that indicates that Autumn is almost here and the fresh start that F. Scott Fitzgerald…

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A love letter to the internet

A love letter to the internet

Dear internet, You’re 25 today. So, let’s talk. I remember the time before you. I did play on the street, I did go home with muddy knees and yes, my friends lived across the road from me. I had a lot of fun and I’m so grateful for my memories of being a scruffy kid who played on the street. My memories BI (before internet) are really exactly what all of those terrible memes say and I do get nostalgic…

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A boyfriend, an ovary, a home and me

A boyfriend, an ovary, a home and me

“I so want to get back on track And I’ll do whatever it takes Even if it kills me” Motion City Soundtrack – Even if it Kills Me  Oh holy hell July kicked my arse. It started with losing a boyfriend and ended with losing a flat (well, my landlord is looking into selling it and was actually very lovely about it all but allow me some dramatics, I’m sad). In between that, I was told I might lose an…

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I’ll love whatever you become (we broke up)

I’ll love whatever you become (we broke up)

After 7 years, 1 month and 3 days, we broke up. It’s difficult to navigate the ending of a relationship when you still like and love each other. When you’re so intertwined in each other’s lives that you sometimes forget that their family, isn’t actually yours. When you have so many in-jokes and such a complete world between just the two of you that only being together feels like home. It’s so incredibly difficult. But it is possible. Our final…

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I’ve Started a Newsletter

I’ve Started a Newsletter

I know, right. You didn’t think I could be any more pretentious and then I land this on you. I realise this may seem a little self-involved but honestly, I just thought it was a good idea and I’m so insecure about it that I’ve opted to not be told when people unsubscribe. Oh boy. Validate me. I have lots I need to write about and honestly, more drafts than public posts on this site but this is just a…

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Wonderful Wednesday Number Two

Wonderful Wednesday Number Two

I! AM! TOO! EXCITED! TO! BE! WRITING! Today I’m seeing Bruce Springsteen for the first time. He’s one of my favourite artists, I have wanted to see him for years but we all know how expensive tickets are. BUT IT’S HAPPENING TODAY! My anxiety issues seem to be calming down, finally, and I’m now just excited for the next week and a half (I go on holiday in two days!). I’m just feeling generally much cheerier than I was last…

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A Chat With Lets Play God

A Chat With Lets Play God

  This is my seventh interview with Lets Play God, I’m sure. After meeting them 5 years ago, I’ve followed their career as both a fan and a friend of the band. In this time, they’ve released two albums, had members come and go, they’ve played Les-Fest (now Wildfire), Hammerfest and to crowds all over Scotland. After drummer John Coll announced last year that he was leaving the band, Lets Play God found a new drummer (well, he was actually…

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